Quite why I believed that person in the first place is now beyond me, but I did. For years! My husband wasn’t just a little startled when I came home with my make-up running down my face. It just made me so angry that someone would firstly say such a thing and that I consequently would believe them!
I mean, how racist an attitude anyway! I am completely certain someone said this to me, someone in authority whose judgement I trusted. Wouldn’t you believe them?
Well, this is the lie I actually believed for YEARS: When there are two applicants to a job at a school in the UK with the same qualifications, and one of them is a foreigner, the school has to give preference to the UK national!
As a result, I never applied for jobs beyond what I thought I, as a foreigner, was entitled to, namely lowly TA jobs. Don’t get me wrong, I have always enjoyed my job and working without much responsibility. My entire attitude to life in the UK however has been one big apology basically! I have always been pussyfooting around, thinking I need to be grateful they are not chasing me off their island. It just makes me angry what one remark can do to someone’s life! Even if it was said in jest, I have no means of finding out.
All I know is that for many years I have felt diminished and quashed in my hopes and aspirations.
Well, how to recover from this? This morning, I came across Ephesians 2:19 which reads “You are no longer foreigners and strangers, but fellow citizens with God’s people and also members of his household.” What a promise and comfort!
And from now on, with newly found confidence, I will be applying for jobs left, right and centre!! Watch out, UK, here I come!